I have come to the realization that I am a bad mom. And whats really sad is that not even the bad moms think they are bad...its weird. My kids hate me. They tell me I am mean. I must be.....Im totally stressed, about money, life...everything. All I do is worry about my kids, how they are feeling, if they are hungry, cold..happy...what I can do to make them better. I never thought of caring for my kids as "raising" kids until they became actual little people, and now more than I ever did before, (and i did) I have to worry about teaching them good morals and ideals, and raising them to be good, nice people...and as a start, Im not doing so good. They get in trouble at school, they kick the teachers, Beth spits on her teachers. Brayden got sent to the office the other day. He was such a good kid. I didnt think I had to worry about him at all. Then he started at this school and things have changed. I dont like it, and everything I do to try to help him change makes it worse. Im at a loss with both of them. I feel like throwing my hands up and just quitting, but I know I cant..and I dont want to. They need me..as much as I need them, but I feel like I am causing them more harm than good...and thats not good. Im at a loss. I feel stupid...I dont like my life, and I used to be proud of where I was. Not that I was an unwed single mother, but that I was making it on my own with no help, and I was doing ok. Now I see things through reality, and it sucks. Im not doing good. Im a bad mom with rough kids and no money. Thats not good. Thats not what I pictured our life looking like. Its scary....I have no clue what I am going to do. Work at this piss ass job, stay poor and unhappy and just pray to god my kids turn out how I wish they will? Im trying so hard...Im just not getting anywhere. I dont know what to do. I have no one to talk to, no one who understands. I dont want my kids ending up like me...god..or like any of my family members. None of us are doing good. I want my kids to be good kids, get good grades, be respectful like we never were...Graduate...live a great life full of great things...and I want to know I contributed to that..but ....ok, my head hurts more now than it did when I started. Im done for now.